I have been "pondering" for days and days. I could say all this pondering has resulted in my deciding to take another break from the blog. It hasn't. What is has resulted in is....confusion (my habitual state of affairs).
I am weary and discouraged. I have begun to think I have missed it once again. I seem to be forever answering a "call" that isn't there. I am well into my sixth decade of life and still wondering if I somehow managed to slip through with a missing part. You know....the one that tells you what you were meant to do.
I have always tried to be honest here. Now I need to be honest with myself. Writing may not be what I am meant to do. I've set the book aside, wondering how I ever imagined it was something I should do. I may set it all aside, the blog, the FB, the writing..... perhaps it's time to go back to my books and knitting needles.
In the meantime, I send you all wishes for the most joyous Christmas ever.
With much love,
Linda
Are you living my thought-life? :-)
ReplyDeleteDon't we all feel this way at times? My blogging is practically at a stand still; I think I've written about everything I know. lol Just rest a while; enjoy Christmas first.
ReplyDeleteYour writing is such a blessing to so many of us, a real gift.
ReplyDeleteI believe you have a gift. It may or may not be your "calling," but you are living out your faith! You are blessing others with your words and The Word----And I'm certain James would approve.
ReplyDeleteSee you tomorrow dear friend.
Take a rest if you need it, Linda. But please don't give up! Your sweet and generous voice is an important one out here. And finish the book - just for the heck of it. I think you might like that sense of completion. Love to you this Advent Monday night.
ReplyDeletealso...
ReplyDeleteponder is an interesting word.
from pondus (gen. ponderis) "weigh" (see pound...
I am nodding and saying amen to all that has been said here. I know this feeling of tired--of coming up against the brick wall, my friend. Oh, my goodness, I wish I could sit with you right now. I want to tell you the story of Leaf by Niggle that Tim Keller shares in his new book. It's a story about Tolkien, when he was working on Lord of the Rings and how he was in a discouraged place...
ReplyDeleteMaybe you can google it? Here, I found a shorter version:
http://redeemercitytocity.com/content/com.redeemer.digitalContentArchive.LibraryItem/503/Hope_for_Your_Work.pdf
page 6. In the book, he goes into more detail and it is very moving. In short, what it says is that the work is where God is. In the joy of the work.
Love you, my friend. Praying.
I'm sorry you're feeling down. Your writing has always been a blessing to me. I understand your feelings of "missing it", though. Prayers for peace and wisdom for you.
ReplyDeleteThere is not another you,
ReplyDeletein your
community, state, nation,
region, world.
Your words
are unique
& needed
but only as you
wanna share.
Don't measure
or do
anything
by how
and when and
where you think
others care -
because you will
always be off
wrong
and short
on calculating
their love -
especially when
it's the kind
gifted from
above.
I know what you mean about that missing part--I really do.
ReplyDeleteI also know how much your words mean to me. Praying you will sense God's pleasure in you as you ponder.
I agree heartily with all that has been said here, Linda. You are a gifted writer and you should just enjoy the gift. Write when you want about what you want because it will always be inspiring and welcome to those who enjoy your style. And we all feel discouraged from time to time about our walk and just life in general. Rest and be assured that you are doing a wonderful work through this blog by blessing many.
ReplyDeleteLove,
Sandy
I miss you. You are such an encourager. I am praying for you. agreeing with the others... you are a gifted writer. Praying God gives you peace.
ReplyDeleteMuch love,
Teena
I often feel the same way. My writing is not the quality it takes for the best seller list, but if one word encourages or strengthens a person's walk with God then that was worth all of the writing.
ReplyDeleteOur calling is to be who you are. He delights in you just the way you are... open and honest is refreshing and delightful.
Sharing the love of God in words is a gift you have. Doubts are only natural for any of us when we compare with others... but God sees only you. You shine brightly and give a glimmer of hope to your world. We have never had so much opportunity to influence so many as we can with technology.
Take a deep breath, drink a hot cup of tea, say a prayer of thanks... and take up that pen again.
Love you sweet lady.